Someone once said “death is like new birth of a child to those who believe in God and heaven. Because when a loved one passes away, the ones left behind mourn with great sadness, while heaven rejoice to welcome home a new member, Just as when a new baby is born is welcomed by great joy. Meaning the pain the mother goes through while in labor, is as the emotional pain we go through when our loved ones is about to depart from us. and then the joy of the new-born baby is same as the heavens rejoicing to welcome a new angel home.”
I really never understood it till recently and some what I am still struggling to accept it. Loosing my mother at age 9 was the most hardest thing any one can handle, and always prayed to at least keep my father around. It didn’t take long and my worse fear became a reality.
At times I find myself keep trying to figure out if God loved me so much, why would he take the most precious and needed piece of my life? not take one but both of my parent? then other times I wonder if my life and my siblings lives would be like if our parents were still around, or at least one of them?! although these questions might never get an answer, I’ve learned to cope and with God on my side I have faced many storms and rain but I’ve made it through.
Marvin Sapp said in his song” Experienced lost at a major cost, but I never lost faith in you(Lord), I’ve got some scars, but I’m still alive in spite of calamity. so if you see me cry, its just a sign that I’m still alive.”
With all that said and done, I’m grateful for God’s blessings upon my life. The scars and pain of my loss will be part of my life forever, but deep down I know there is someone out there who have had or still is having it harder/worse than me, so there for I’m grateful and have faith that God only knows why and with that God will comfort me and keep me grounded and show me the way to move forward, in which I think I’m doing pretty decent (at least I hope I am:)) and hoping that my parent are looking down and proud of the woman I’ve grown up to be, and I love that people always say how I look just like my mother and have her personality as well as Dad’s hard-working skills and loving life and mostly Tall like him.
RIP Mommy and Daddy, you are greatly missed and in me you will live forever. 🙂